Hi. My name is Matthew, and I am a "toxic" saint. I struggle with my faith [love] at times, and my head (I ask hard questions) sometimes too. Sometimes I struggle more than I love.
I came here simply to keep my mind (and my typing finger) active. I am not "lonely" because I have a wonderful wife who loves me (she is my best friend), two girls, and we are also in the process of adopting. I think my self-esteem is pretty good most days. I am a stay-at-home dad.
My true desire is to simply have an intelligent conversation about my life, my experiences, my faith [love], and my sometimes lack thereof. It's nice having someone to "bounce" things off of during the day... that is a little older than seven. My evenings and weekends are usually pretty full. I'll talk about anything. I have a cat, a dog, a car, a truck, a house, kids, a wife, guns, and have had 4 RVs. I like pizza and I don't like most veggies. 8^) "Gun control" is being able to hit your target.
I like to talk with folks that can share without feeling compelled to "get me told" go all religious on me. I have lost two children. NOTE: If you like to debate, I can do that ...but it tends to make me quite aggressive and blunt in my writing style. Moniti estis!
That being said, I will not delete this topic if you make me angry, hurt my feelings, disagree with me, don't take what I say as The Gospel, reject my advice, don't want my prayers (see below), or even if you make me cry. 8^) I expect the same.
That being said, my IQ is 137. I hold a BA in Criminal Justice (I know, it should be Criminal Punishment or Victim's Justice) and a minor in Sociology. For the record, I think Freud was half nuts. I changed my minor from psychology to sociology for that reason. I tend to think like a lawyer. I come from an educated, christian background. I like short sentences. 6^)
Attack my ideology if you like, but not me personally. If you think that you are God's gift of revelation/teaching, you will probably grow to hate me (which is fine by me). However, you can save me some time (and a red finger). Simply hate me now (I'm toxic) and go talk to someone somewhere else. 8^)
More about me? I have two "learning" disabilities, ADHD (can you tell) and dyslexia. However, I still know how to read The Bible for myself (with a fondness for the NA 26/27 Interlinear). I also know how to think for myself. I probably WILL NOT believe anything you say that The Bible says, unless it really does ...within The Writings "best evidence" context (and I do check everything).
Best evidence... "as close to the original as possible."
Because I can read, I am also aware that The Bible contains glosses. I am also aware that there is ongoing work to try and determine what the original text was. I am also aware that there are thousands of discrepancies, and that the original text is lost. What we have is only close. Look it up and see for yourself.
I'm much more concerned with how Jesus lived His life, than what is recorded that the apostles and disciples did after He left. I try and follow him, not them.
I will NOT believe that you hear God's voice every minute of every day. I used to think I did, and it lead to personal pride and [almost] the destruction of my life. Therefore, I will not receive any "word" you speak into my life. Jesus is The Word that I am interested in, and I have already received Him. 6^)
You are NOT welcome to pray for me ...unless you ask first, and I agree. I promise I will never "pray" for you (you know what I'm talking about). I totally reject those type of prayers. 8^P
Hi. My name is Matthew, and I am a "toxic" imperfect saint. PLEASE DO NOT reply to this post ...unless you think you can handle that. I always have Netflix. 8^)
Well, I had to Google Min Pin...
Like my son, a number of American falconers, including his future sponsor, develop their interest as kids from reading the My Side of the Mountain series of books by Jean Graighead George. They feature a Peregrine falcon.
We don't do much that costs much money. As I said, God dropped the SBD in our lap, in the middle of the longest drought of work I have ever been through. The trip to Akron was all expenses paid (except for the trailer hub that broke!). We never would have been able to do this at all if I had had a full schedule of work (I'm self-employed). Of course there's more to the story, but again, I'll leave it at that.
Yea, the Min Pin. She was a good dog. Best of all, she didn't stink. BUT the Pit Bull on the other hand was an angle dog. We got her when she was four-and-a-half years old. She had been horribly abused, had been used for a puppy mill, and then had been dumped off at the Humane Society... so starved that she couldn't even walk.
They said that the only reason they didn't put her down, was because the Pit Bull breed is so resilient. She was gentle tested, and put up for adoption. When I adopted her, I could still count her vertebrae (that bad). I could also outrun her. Over time, her loose skin filled in with solid rippling muscle ...and she didn't just love us, she was in love with us! It's strange having a huge Pit Bull that always wants to lay in your lap. 8^)
Both my wife and I have had dogs. We both agree that she was the best dog either of us have even owned!
It is interesting that you are self employed. My wife is a contractor (.NET, C#, etc.) and did the self employed thing for a while too. We actually moved to this area because there is a lot of work for her here. I can work on houses anywhere...