Being a disciple-maker, you are invisible. You are not on a platform, but you are doing the essential, daily nurturing, edifying labour which is sourced from the Lord’s passionate love for the young ones He has brought alongside for the season. You are continually giving of your time, in my husband's case---hardly ever programmed---continually, by phone, visit, email, and rarely in a formal ‘spiritual’ gathering. Sometimes we do 'meetings' (these days we like to have a no-leadership-structure when these happen)
There is no glory; or wonderful expression of your anointing manifested to an amazed crowd, by your profound messages, little if any recognition; rather you share one on one, pouring into the people the Lord has brought alongside for the season.
Then inevitably there is (for me) that dreaded sense that again this beautiful season where the Spirit of the Lord has rested so sweetly, powerfully and beautifully on your tiny group, is coming to an end; and sure enough the little flock is sent out in various directions, and ‘your’ tiny church is emptied yet again.
Many people believed we lost our way from our call, or have been 'passive', and 'failed'. Contempt is poured on our minute numbers by more 'successful' leaders, especially when even the few we had didn't form the foundation of a 'church plant'! They ran off to do their Lord's bidding!
This has happened to us repeatedly.
In our ministry MANY of these dear ones, over 2 decades, remain friends and loved family, Kumar regularly chats to them, thanks to the Facebook and email (they tend to turn to the 'wise' dad figure though I know they love me too). We have a large family spread across the globe who we love, not a concrete building with a structure of activity.
For any of our friends who have wondered why we haven’t planted a church, how we've 'failed'---we are called first as disciple-makers, and in our experience it has left no time or room for building a 'church', whatever that is. And we have been so blessed by the presence of the Lord in our ministry.