This week, after much soul searching I've made the decision to formally withdraw from membership in a church I worked in for almost
5 years and then continued to attend following.
The details don't matter and I'm not interesting in venting publically so I won't.
At this point I'm simply looking to recenter on a personal walk with Christ and to find others of a similar mind and direction. I'm no longer interested in sitting in an audience watching others perform and deciding who is good enough to perform in their game. I've been on both sides.
One burns you out and the other leaves you passively living your spiritual life out through others.
There's something wrong with that whole system.
I don't know what lies ahead. I suspect it will not be easy.
Regardless, onward and upward.